I did find a new job and the hours are perfect: 8:30-12:30 pm, M-F. I get to still be Amelia's mommy every afternoon and I am thrilled.
So I was a full-time mommy/housewife for 2.5 months. I used to think "If only I had time during the day by myself, I would get SO much done." Well, folks it didn't happen. I am really trying to figure out why. Sure, I spent a good deal of time looking for a new job. In December I also spent many hours volunteering at Amelia's school (like 2-3 hours a day, every day), plus all the [I hate to say] chores associated with Christmas. And even with that extra time, Christmas still wasn't as um, Christmas-y as I thought it would be. There still wasn't all the extra time to make the most delicious, prettiest cookies ever, put the most fantastic and pefectly-matched ribbons on gifts, and all that other Hallmark hooey. I mean, really, where DO I get these ideas from?!?!?
Anyhow, back to the present. I did get some things accomplished, some drawers organized, some unwanted items out, some projects mended/fixed. But there isn't the complete overhaul I was expecting I could accomplish. So perhaps I need to look a little internally for the answers then, rather than the "if only .."'s. Clearly the "if only"'s in life are not the answer and letting myself get caught up on that is a stumbling block to progress in my life.
One thing I realized about myself is that I suck at putting things away. I am so busy with more than one thing at a time, moving onto the next thing, etc. that I don't put things away. Then at the end of the it, even though I clean up the messiest stuff along the way (like putting food away), there is often a huge mess everywhere by the end of the day, and I am exhausted from everything I was doing that created the mess! I think some prioritizing is in order. (haha, pun intended)
Amelia had to earn money to buy a Hello Kitty she wanted from Build-a-Bear so having her do chores really has helped. Her continued issue at school with being easily distracted also brought home (literally) the realization that we move from one thing to another way to easily in our home. So she and I are both trying to focus better on what we are actually doing, and finishing it - including putting things away when we're done. And wow, this is hard!!!
So what started out as a post on my new job meandered into "if only" (so I retitled the post) and ended on our need to "focus". Yes, focus. That is definitely a work in progress ... can't even do it well in a blog post! LOL.
